Everything from things as trivial as when he used a separate quote in two different stories in a Journalism class, from the time he made a Nina cry when he told he didn’t love her and was incapable of doing so. The guilt and unease circled through his brain, and he started to question the meaning of happiness.
He lay in the room, it was dark, and the movie was coming to a close. He had forgotten that he ordered pizza, and wondered when the hell it was going to be there. He looked at the clock. It was 2:45 in the morning, he had fallen asleep at some point.
“Damn,” Milton said to himself in a hazy mutter, “I coulda gone for that fucking pizza.”
His minds were clearer than hours previous, and he made a strong decision to lay off on the grass for the time being, it was doing no good for him. He noticed the red blinking of his cell phone and saw that he had two messages.
The first message was from his “editor,” who was in fact a family friend and could give a fuck less about anything he wrote, much less actually believe in the words that he was trying to express.
“Hello Milton, wondering how the writing’s coming along, I have lots of publishers lined up willing to read your work.”
Milton thought the suggestion absurd; she had never even read his fucking work.
Another message came from his father, the usual bullshit. His father was proud, misses him, etc.. In fact his father was too holed up in his girlfriend’s apartment and his financial woes to actually truly care what he had been up tp.
Milton felt uneasy, all he wanted was some comfort. He took a bottle of Beck’s and swigged it down fast, the cold metallic taste hitting curdling his stomach. He decided he would need something stronger.
He walked outside into the cold darkness, the streets were deserted, and he knew it would be awfully hard to get a cab. He made a call to his usual guy, Ritchie, who could him a drive down to South Boston where he could get a couple of Xanax.
The drive, though only 20 minutes, seemed long. Milton’s thoughts became no less negative, he was lonely, and confused, and felt as if he might be experiencing some sort of final stage of puberty. Everything was changing, except unlike the 12 year old woes of nocturnal dreams and pubic hair, he noticed it was the world and his life that was changing, while his body, and his soul, remained ever the same. They seemed to hit every street light on the drive, the yellow lights kept telling him to slow down, but he knew that that was exactly what he had been doing wrong. Speed limit read 35 mph, no one in this country drives at such absurd speeds, no baby we’re at 60 on the freeway at least, and fuck who ever thinks they can stop us, he thought. People don’t think, they just go, whether on green, yellow or red, but Milton, he wanted something else.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Post-Undergrad part 3
Milton was not living the bohemian existence that he had at once envisioned for himself.
He was a lowly failing novelist and no luck journalist, and he had trouble identifying himself as a writer at all anymore. He remembered himself as a young man of 19 (he was only 23, yet he didn’t feel any youthful exuberance) having daydreams, more like delusions, of himself as a cutting edge underground artist. Maybe playing in an obscure art-noise punk band that got rave reviews by all the hip reviewers on their blogs, or perhaps writing scripts for new abrasive television shows that would only have a chance of being played on HBO if anywhere, or a writer, writing great pieces of literature that only a few would understand and even less would love. He was beginning to accept his mediocrity, and his impotence in the face of becoming what he truly desired to be.
Instead he was nothing more than a civil servant, 1/10 of what he used to be. He had been through so much in the last few years. He had loved and lost, picked up and kicked drug habits and graduated school with a decent bit of honor, and yet he couldn’t shake the nagging feeling that he was in some way a coward, the opposite of the great heroes of literature that he admired.
“Hamlet I am not,” he thought, nor Ulysses, nor Atticus.
He was bored and had some extra cash on him from the weed he had been selling. Though he loathed the idea, he called up Bob and asked him if he was interested in heading to a strip club he knew of in Brockton.
To his astonishment, Bob had a date.
“A date,” Milton said, “That’s great,” barely hiding his disgust at the idea.
Milton slammed his phone back of the hook without bidding his friend farewell. The heat rose in his face and a dip pit had formed in the most compact area of his bowels. He felt for a minute that he was going to violently vomit.
He paced around the room with magnificent exasperation, literally working up a sweat as his worked his way up and down through the monotonous repetitions of step. How was it that Bob, fucking pizza boy Bob, has a date? Was he lying? No, Milton thought, for all his defects of character, Bob was not a liar.
Milton tried to calm down, he ordered himself a pizza and opened up a bottle of Beck’s. He through on a movie, some trash with Lindsay Lohan that was on the television, and felt himself compliantly tuning in as if to fill the time. He rolled up some weed into an empty hollowed cigarette and quickly puffed away.
The joint had not offered him solace and comfort as he expected. Instead, his thoughts of paranoia became more apparent, Bob’s potential for sex all of a sudden a metaphor for his entire existence.
Flashes of guilt and hard memories raced through his mind.
He was a lowly failing novelist and no luck journalist, and he had trouble identifying himself as a writer at all anymore. He remembered himself as a young man of 19 (he was only 23, yet he didn’t feel any youthful exuberance) having daydreams, more like delusions, of himself as a cutting edge underground artist. Maybe playing in an obscure art-noise punk band that got rave reviews by all the hip reviewers on their blogs, or perhaps writing scripts for new abrasive television shows that would only have a chance of being played on HBO if anywhere, or a writer, writing great pieces of literature that only a few would understand and even less would love. He was beginning to accept his mediocrity, and his impotence in the face of becoming what he truly desired to be.
Instead he was nothing more than a civil servant, 1/10 of what he used to be. He had been through so much in the last few years. He had loved and lost, picked up and kicked drug habits and graduated school with a decent bit of honor, and yet he couldn’t shake the nagging feeling that he was in some way a coward, the opposite of the great heroes of literature that he admired.
“Hamlet I am not,” he thought, nor Ulysses, nor Atticus.
He was bored and had some extra cash on him from the weed he had been selling. Though he loathed the idea, he called up Bob and asked him if he was interested in heading to a strip club he knew of in Brockton.
To his astonishment, Bob had a date.
“A date,” Milton said, “That’s great,” barely hiding his disgust at the idea.
Milton slammed his phone back of the hook without bidding his friend farewell. The heat rose in his face and a dip pit had formed in the most compact area of his bowels. He felt for a minute that he was going to violently vomit.
He paced around the room with magnificent exasperation, literally working up a sweat as his worked his way up and down through the monotonous repetitions of step. How was it that Bob, fucking pizza boy Bob, has a date? Was he lying? No, Milton thought, for all his defects of character, Bob was not a liar.
Milton tried to calm down, he ordered himself a pizza and opened up a bottle of Beck’s. He through on a movie, some trash with Lindsay Lohan that was on the television, and felt himself compliantly tuning in as if to fill the time. He rolled up some weed into an empty hollowed cigarette and quickly puffed away.
The joint had not offered him solace and comfort as he expected. Instead, his thoughts of paranoia became more apparent, Bob’s potential for sex all of a sudden a metaphor for his entire existence.
Flashes of guilt and hard memories raced through his mind.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Athletes v. Academics at UA part 2
C.A.T.S. offers athletes a study table, in which athletes are taught time management and prioritizing, and even obliges athletes to maintain study calendars to keep up with what school work that needs to be completed on a given day. Men’s Tennis player and Family Studies junior Geoff Embry said, “Not every athlete has study hall but the ones who do are in it for six to eight hours per day with a mentor. It’s awesome to be able to get your work done and not have that much to do when you get home.”
“When student athletes arrive to school in their first semester, and I think this is generally true of most students coming into college, their study habits are insufficient for the college workload,” said Meade.
C.A.T.S. also offers content tutoring with tutors that specialize in certain challenging subjects, such as Math, Economics, Foreign Language and others. They even have a satellite writing team trained by the writing program but working out of C.A.T.S. for athletes, who can’t find time in their schedules to make it down to the Writing center, said Meade.
The C.A.T.S. Life Skills program is designed to help athletes become more active outside their academic and athletic work. Associate Athletics Director and director of Life Skills Becky Bell said, “We want our athletes to be “life champions”. We want them to get more involved and take more initiative for a broadening university experience.”
Life Skills encourages athletes to get involved with internships, volunteer in the community and do things that go beyond the normal athletics and academics requirements to ensure a better resume come graduation.
“Do a little overtime and you’ll be prepared when you graduate,” said Bell.
Athletes involved in the Life Skills program have received numerous awards over the years, including three this year. Lacey Nymeyer of the women’s swimming team was awarded NCAA Woman of the Year, Craig Sheedy of the men’s swimming team has been awarded with the NCAA Walter Byers Award and freestyle swimmer Justine Schluntz has been given the University of Arizona Senior’s Award.
The Woman of the Year award is the third of its kind awarded to a University of Arizona student since 1994; no other Pac-10 school has any, according to Bell.
Many students on campus seem to believe that student athletes have it easier than non-athletes. Classes like History of Rock and American Popular Music have many athletes in them, but this is most likely due to the fact that athletes get priority registration and are able to sign up for classes first. This class in particular is not seen as an “easy A” but instead a class that generally all students on campus are interested in. Embry said other popular classes include Astronomy, Oceanography and Nutrition, none of which are traditionally “easy” courses.
Meade said, “There’s a perception that athletes get more perks than other students. But, they have demands placed on their time. The glamour of being a college athlete is not what it is perceived to be. They have three hours of practice, weights and by the time they shower and have dinner by 7 p.m. they still have not even gotten to their school work.”
“I don’t like the fact that students think athletes have it easier academically then other students,” said Embry, “It’s not like there’s any professor who’ll grade us easier because we play sports.”
Athletes are given priority registration because they need to plan their school schedules around an already rigid sports schedule.
When asked about the stigma of athletes having an easier time than other students, Davis said, “Yeah, we get it. But it doesn’t bother me because I know we work hard, when our grades are poor we can’t play.”
“When student athletes arrive to school in their first semester, and I think this is generally true of most students coming into college, their study habits are insufficient for the college workload,” said Meade.
C.A.T.S. also offers content tutoring with tutors that specialize in certain challenging subjects, such as Math, Economics, Foreign Language and others. They even have a satellite writing team trained by the writing program but working out of C.A.T.S. for athletes, who can’t find time in their schedules to make it down to the Writing center, said Meade.
The C.A.T.S. Life Skills program is designed to help athletes become more active outside their academic and athletic work. Associate Athletics Director and director of Life Skills Becky Bell said, “We want our athletes to be “life champions”. We want them to get more involved and take more initiative for a broadening university experience.”
Life Skills encourages athletes to get involved with internships, volunteer in the community and do things that go beyond the normal athletics and academics requirements to ensure a better resume come graduation.
“Do a little overtime and you’ll be prepared when you graduate,” said Bell.
Athletes involved in the Life Skills program have received numerous awards over the years, including three this year. Lacey Nymeyer of the women’s swimming team was awarded NCAA Woman of the Year, Craig Sheedy of the men’s swimming team has been awarded with the NCAA Walter Byers Award and freestyle swimmer Justine Schluntz has been given the University of Arizona Senior’s Award.
The Woman of the Year award is the third of its kind awarded to a University of Arizona student since 1994; no other Pac-10 school has any, according to Bell.
Many students on campus seem to believe that student athletes have it easier than non-athletes. Classes like History of Rock and American Popular Music have many athletes in them, but this is most likely due to the fact that athletes get priority registration and are able to sign up for classes first. This class in particular is not seen as an “easy A” but instead a class that generally all students on campus are interested in. Embry said other popular classes include Astronomy, Oceanography and Nutrition, none of which are traditionally “easy” courses.
Meade said, “There’s a perception that athletes get more perks than other students. But, they have demands placed on their time. The glamour of being a college athlete is not what it is perceived to be. They have three hours of practice, weights and by the time they shower and have dinner by 7 p.m. they still have not even gotten to their school work.”
“I don’t like the fact that students think athletes have it easier academically then other students,” said Embry, “It’s not like there’s any professor who’ll grade us easier because we play sports.”
Athletes are given priority registration because they need to plan their school schedules around an already rigid sports schedule.
When asked about the stigma of athletes having an easier time than other students, Davis said, “Yeah, we get it. But it doesn’t bother me because I know we work hard, when our grades are poor we can’t play.”
Athletes v. Academics at UA story part 1
C.A.T.S, or Commitment to Athletes’ Total Success, consistently tries to raise standards for academics among athletes through the offering of tutoring and advising that better allows athletes to manage their schedules.
Despite a poor rate of graduation among athletes that was reported on in the Wildcat earlier this year as being the fourth worst among athletes who entered school during the years of 1998-99 and 2000-01, academics among athletes on campus seem to be improving. C.A.T.S. institutes a number of programs to help improve academics among athletes for the future.
“Our mission is to ensure that student athletes handle the transition from high school to college and that this transition is as smooth as possible,” said director of Director of C.A.T.S. Academic Services for Athletes Mike Meade, “We wish to provide athletes the tools and resources needed given the taxing time demands split between academics and sport.”
C.A.T.S. no longer reports to the University of Arizona’s athletic department. Instead, C.A.T.S. reports to the Division of Student Affairs. Meade says this allows for more academic support on campus outside the athletics department and maintains communication between the athletics and the academic sides of the University.
According to Meade, the reports of low graduation among athletes were for students who are “long gone” from the school, and since then, the academics among athletes has improved.
There is a new measurement for athletes’ academic success since those reports have come out, the Academic Progress Rate (APR). The report, instituted in 2005, measures teams based on athletes’ academic progression from semester to semester, retention of athletes within a given program and the graduation rate after 5 years, according to Meade.
“It’s a better indication of how athletes are doing,” he said.
According to NCAA, collegiate teams that fail to achieve an APR score of at least 925, or a 50 percent graduation rate, can be penalized. A perfect score is 1000.
The University of Arizona’s Men’s Cross Country team posted a perfect score of 1000 in the APR report posted on May 1 of this year, earning them the Public Recognition Award. However, men’s football received a score of 924 in the same report, one point shy of what was needed to pass.
Mike Meade is optimistic for the coming APR report in May, 2010, saying, “We’re looking healthy in the classroom.”
C.A.T.S. utilizes methods to maintain academic success among athletes. They monitor the academic progress among athletes on a regular basis, and professors of athletes are required to give updates on student athletes at least twice during a semester.
“C.A.T.S. is a huge help,” said women’s Soccer player and Physical Education junior Alex Davis, “For freshman and sophomores there is planned and scheduled study hall and it really helps you prioritize when you get to college. The advisors are awesome, and we get both educational and sports advisors and it’s good to get opinions from both.”
“Student athletes are held to higher standards and require close attention,” said Meade, “So if a student dips (in grades) we know about it before things get beyond repair.”
Despite a poor rate of graduation among athletes that was reported on in the Wildcat earlier this year as being the fourth worst among athletes who entered school during the years of 1998-99 and 2000-01, academics among athletes on campus seem to be improving. C.A.T.S. institutes a number of programs to help improve academics among athletes for the future.
“Our mission is to ensure that student athletes handle the transition from high school to college and that this transition is as smooth as possible,” said director of Director of C.A.T.S. Academic Services for Athletes Mike Meade, “We wish to provide athletes the tools and resources needed given the taxing time demands split between academics and sport.”
C.A.T.S. no longer reports to the University of Arizona’s athletic department. Instead, C.A.T.S. reports to the Division of Student Affairs. Meade says this allows for more academic support on campus outside the athletics department and maintains communication between the athletics and the academic sides of the University.
According to Meade, the reports of low graduation among athletes were for students who are “long gone” from the school, and since then, the academics among athletes has improved.
There is a new measurement for athletes’ academic success since those reports have come out, the Academic Progress Rate (APR). The report, instituted in 2005, measures teams based on athletes’ academic progression from semester to semester, retention of athletes within a given program and the graduation rate after 5 years, according to Meade.
“It’s a better indication of how athletes are doing,” he said.
According to NCAA, collegiate teams that fail to achieve an APR score of at least 925, or a 50 percent graduation rate, can be penalized. A perfect score is 1000.
The University of Arizona’s Men’s Cross Country team posted a perfect score of 1000 in the APR report posted on May 1 of this year, earning them the Public Recognition Award. However, men’s football received a score of 924 in the same report, one point shy of what was needed to pass.
Mike Meade is optimistic for the coming APR report in May, 2010, saying, “We’re looking healthy in the classroom.”
C.A.T.S. utilizes methods to maintain academic success among athletes. They monitor the academic progress among athletes on a regular basis, and professors of athletes are required to give updates on student athletes at least twice during a semester.
“C.A.T.S. is a huge help,” said women’s Soccer player and Physical Education junior Alex Davis, “For freshman and sophomores there is planned and scheduled study hall and it really helps you prioritize when you get to college. The advisors are awesome, and we get both educational and sports advisors and it’s good to get opinions from both.”
“Student athletes are held to higher standards and require close attention,” said Meade, “So if a student dips (in grades) we know about it before things get beyond repair.”
Monday, November 23, 2009
The madness of college football
College football is madness. Yesterday was the “game of the year”, with even college game day in toe, but when observing the scene, one has to wonder if most of the people there truly care about the result of the game, and the game itself, or the fact that perhaps it’s just another excuse to get deliriously wasted on alcohol and drugs. As far as I can tell, it would have to be a combination of both.
Thursday night, two nights prior to the actual game, is when the debauchery starts. The bars are packed, fraternities are stocking up, and undergrads scour the streets in search of house parties. They claim that binge drinking can be classified as more than 5-6 drinks per night for a man and 4-5 for a woman, which in turn means that seemingly more than 90 percent of the drinking crowd on campus is of the binge drinking persuasion. Are people actually excited for the game? Or are they generally just excited to drink? And sex of course, can’t forget about that, as everyone who goes out partying always has that somewhere in the course of their minds. We are after all, human. So much of our behavior is directed towards the ultimate goal of sex, and the loosening on inhibitions through alcohol and whatever illicit substances are popular on campus at the time are a clear cut example of this.
The party continues through Friday night. Everyone was excited to make it to the ESPN college game day showcase on Saturday morning, but I for one knew my friends and I would be out until at least 3 am, and sure as hell weren’t going to make it out of the house by 4:30 am.
So, you sleep for maybe 4 or 5 hours tops, get up, and instantly start drinking off the previous night’s hangover. Was anyone celebrating the fact that the so called “biggest football game in Arizona history” was going to be starting at 6 pm, or were they generally just content to drink and be with their friends all day. Three bottles of wind, lots of cheap beer and hard alcohol, sitting by the pool; enjoying the fact that for that very moment no essays were due, no tests were to be had and no deadlines were upcoming.
The actual games rolls around at 6 pm, but we had to leave at 4, a total drag to be sitting in the stadium for that long. Arizona played well, though ultimately lost. I was unfortunately of the persuasion to run down to the field way too early, with approximately 30 seconds left in the fourth quarter. When the game was inevitably lost, I was certainly disappointed, if only momentarily. See, these games have no real bearing on my personal life, and it seems absurd to let something so futile bring me down. Instead, I go out, get a drink and enjoy the night regardless of football or not. Am I in the minority? Or am I in the secret majority?
Thursday night, two nights prior to the actual game, is when the debauchery starts. The bars are packed, fraternities are stocking up, and undergrads scour the streets in search of house parties. They claim that binge drinking can be classified as more than 5-6 drinks per night for a man and 4-5 for a woman, which in turn means that seemingly more than 90 percent of the drinking crowd on campus is of the binge drinking persuasion. Are people actually excited for the game? Or are they generally just excited to drink? And sex of course, can’t forget about that, as everyone who goes out partying always has that somewhere in the course of their minds. We are after all, human. So much of our behavior is directed towards the ultimate goal of sex, and the loosening on inhibitions through alcohol and whatever illicit substances are popular on campus at the time are a clear cut example of this.
The party continues through Friday night. Everyone was excited to make it to the ESPN college game day showcase on Saturday morning, but I for one knew my friends and I would be out until at least 3 am, and sure as hell weren’t going to make it out of the house by 4:30 am.
So, you sleep for maybe 4 or 5 hours tops, get up, and instantly start drinking off the previous night’s hangover. Was anyone celebrating the fact that the so called “biggest football game in Arizona history” was going to be starting at 6 pm, or were they generally just content to drink and be with their friends all day. Three bottles of wind, lots of cheap beer and hard alcohol, sitting by the pool; enjoying the fact that for that very moment no essays were due, no tests were to be had and no deadlines were upcoming.
The actual games rolls around at 6 pm, but we had to leave at 4, a total drag to be sitting in the stadium for that long. Arizona played well, though ultimately lost. I was unfortunately of the persuasion to run down to the field way too early, with approximately 30 seconds left in the fourth quarter. When the game was inevitably lost, I was certainly disappointed, if only momentarily. See, these games have no real bearing on my personal life, and it seems absurd to let something so futile bring me down. Instead, I go out, get a drink and enjoy the night regardless of football or not. Am I in the minority? Or am I in the secret majority?
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Post-undergrad part 2
Milton ordered himself an espresso. He didn’t feel like staying very long, and hoped to maybe find a story that he could freelance to the Boston Globe for the following Sunday paper, though the paper had already rejected everything he had ever written previously.
“Do you ever think about going back to school, Bob?” Milton asked.
` “I think about it, fuck, sure I think about it. But I can’t even payoff my debts to undergrad school unless I save up some more, but yeah, the hell is an architect without a master’s these days?”
“Yeah, me too. I just don’t know about being a reporter, it sounds like a right boring thing to be,” Bob said, “I think I want to go back into maybe creative writing courses, so I can play with language more, not to mention I can’t stand these deadlines anymore.”
Bob nodded, trying to feel sympathy for his friend, but he knew at his heart that his friend had no right lamenting to him when he had to go in for a 9 hour shift at a motherfucking chain pizza restaurant within the following hour.
Milton drank his espresso down with haste; it was warm and soothing, and cheap. He sat around for a few more minutes, staring into his friend’s blank eyes. What had happened to them was so obvious and yet so pathetic, he could barely stand to look at him.
Bob asked Milton if he’d like a sandwich, to which Milton politely declined. Though he did want a glass of water. He drank the water and bid his farewells to Bob, who still had an hour before he had to go to work.
He left the coffee shop and walked out into the cold streets. Boston felt colder every year, he thought to himself.
Early November and the leaves that were at once colorful and vivacious were now fallen to the ground, browned and decaying. He walked through the Harvard campus and felt nostalgic. All these students with so many bright futures, it had only been a year since he was one of them, and in that year he had lost any sense of himself that made him like them.
His college girlfriend, Jane, had already moved onto medical school, and naturally she fell in with a young and talented doctor, or at least this was the version Milton had envisioned. He did not truly know why she left him, but it terrified him to think that he had simply become “boring”.
It was three months after graduation when he got the message, a fucking message, no real goodbyes.
“Milton, I can’t see you anymore, please don’t call back, it’ll just make it harder.”
He was aghast as he listened, for 30 times in a row. For months afterward all he thought about was her, and the blood boiled in him as he knew she was out there living her life and he was stuck doing the same things every day.
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“Do you ever think about going back to school, Bob?” Milton asked.
` “I think about it, fuck, sure I think about it. But I can’t even payoff my debts to undergrad school unless I save up some more, but yeah, the hell is an architect without a master’s these days?”
“Yeah, me too. I just don’t know about being a reporter, it sounds like a right boring thing to be,” Bob said, “I think I want to go back into maybe creative writing courses, so I can play with language more, not to mention I can’t stand these deadlines anymore.”
Bob nodded, trying to feel sympathy for his friend, but he knew at his heart that his friend had no right lamenting to him when he had to go in for a 9 hour shift at a motherfucking chain pizza restaurant within the following hour.
Milton drank his espresso down with haste; it was warm and soothing, and cheap. He sat around for a few more minutes, staring into his friend’s blank eyes. What had happened to them was so obvious and yet so pathetic, he could barely stand to look at him.
Bob asked Milton if he’d like a sandwich, to which Milton politely declined. Though he did want a glass of water. He drank the water and bid his farewells to Bob, who still had an hour before he had to go to work.
He left the coffee shop and walked out into the cold streets. Boston felt colder every year, he thought to himself.
Early November and the leaves that were at once colorful and vivacious were now fallen to the ground, browned and decaying. He walked through the Harvard campus and felt nostalgic. All these students with so many bright futures, it had only been a year since he was one of them, and in that year he had lost any sense of himself that made him like them.
His college girlfriend, Jane, had already moved onto medical school, and naturally she fell in with a young and talented doctor, or at least this was the version Milton had envisioned. He did not truly know why she left him, but it terrified him to think that he had simply become “boring”.
It was three months after graduation when he got the message, a fucking message, no real goodbyes.
“Milton, I can’t see you anymore, please don’t call back, it’ll just make it harder.”
He was aghast as he listened, for 30 times in a row. For months afterward all he thought about was her, and the blood boiled in him as he knew she was out there living her life and he was stuck doing the same things every day.
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Post-Undergrad part 1
Milton was having trouble finding work, and all the ensuing trouble that generally follows a fellow who can’t seem to find his way. He had graduated from Boston University with a degree in journalism a year prior, but the idea of living a life filled with constant deadlines nauseated him. He didn’t know if he wanted to continue his education further, and he wasn’t quite living the bohemian existence that he had in his early youth so envisioned for himself.
His days generally started at around 9 am. He set his clock for 6, but when the buzzer inevitably went off he couldn’t help but groan and flail his weary arms about to shut it off and get another few hours of sleep. He would then look in the want ads. Some jobs certainly appealed to him, such as record store manager, or book store employee, but he never actually made an attempt to get such a job as a result of his own intellectual vanity.
He went jogging in the mornings. It was quite possibly the only time he enjoyed himself, and the only thing that gave him a sense of self worth. While most of his college buddies were already living a dreary existence of marriage of junk foods, he still retained an essence of youth that was most prominent in his physical appearance. He was a lean 6 feet 160 lb, and he was running miles in 5 minutes when he wanted to, as fast and healthy as he was in high school. He caught the attention of women rather easily, though he also lost the attention even more so, especially considering he was dead fucking broke.
He would eventually make his way down to the coffee shop in Cambridge and meet with his friend, Bill. They had graduated together, albeit, from different majors. Bill was into architecture, but the recession left very few people with the cash to build anything, leaving him jobless. He took a job at a local Pizzeria Regina, where the cuisine was adding an excess of fat to his waist, covering up his formerly wiry and toned torso. He noticed this more and more as the days went on, and it had been months since he had a decent lay, let alone a girlfriend.
Bill was already sitting at their usual table outside when he got there. He was drinking his favorite, a child cappuccino, and as per usual the foam was permeated throughout his thick red beard. He was reading a book on architecture with a look of loathe, as if he felt he had to read it as opposed to him actually wanting to read it.
Milton observed his friend for a moment, chucked and sat down.
“What’s on the agenda today, there, Bob?”
“Well you know, got work later, might go see that new Coen Bros movie.”
Bob went to more movies than critics, sometimes he’d even pay his money to see movies he knew he wouldn’t like, just to distract himself from his dreary and dull existence.
His days generally started at around 9 am. He set his clock for 6, but when the buzzer inevitably went off he couldn’t help but groan and flail his weary arms about to shut it off and get another few hours of sleep. He would then look in the want ads. Some jobs certainly appealed to him, such as record store manager, or book store employee, but he never actually made an attempt to get such a job as a result of his own intellectual vanity.
He went jogging in the mornings. It was quite possibly the only time he enjoyed himself, and the only thing that gave him a sense of self worth. While most of his college buddies were already living a dreary existence of marriage of junk foods, he still retained an essence of youth that was most prominent in his physical appearance. He was a lean 6 feet 160 lb, and he was running miles in 5 minutes when he wanted to, as fast and healthy as he was in high school. He caught the attention of women rather easily, though he also lost the attention even more so, especially considering he was dead fucking broke.
He would eventually make his way down to the coffee shop in Cambridge and meet with his friend, Bill. They had graduated together, albeit, from different majors. Bill was into architecture, but the recession left very few people with the cash to build anything, leaving him jobless. He took a job at a local Pizzeria Regina, where the cuisine was adding an excess of fat to his waist, covering up his formerly wiry and toned torso. He noticed this more and more as the days went on, and it had been months since he had a decent lay, let alone a girlfriend.
Bill was already sitting at their usual table outside when he got there. He was drinking his favorite, a child cappuccino, and as per usual the foam was permeated throughout his thick red beard. He was reading a book on architecture with a look of loathe, as if he felt he had to read it as opposed to him actually wanting to read it.
Milton observed his friend for a moment, chucked and sat down.
“What’s on the agenda today, there, Bob?”
“Well you know, got work later, might go see that new Coen Bros movie.”
Bob went to more movies than critics, sometimes he’d even pay his money to see movies he knew he wouldn’t like, just to distract himself from his dreary and dull existence.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
story i wrote again
Ward 3 residents employ alternative water harvesting practices such as rainwater harvesting to restore natural beauty and reduce pollution in the area.
The Ward 3 council came together with Watershed Management Group in 2006 to start a number of water harvesting programs that would teach and allow residents to re-use rain water as a means of making the area greener and more beautiful. These programs are becoming infinitely more popular in Tucson, especially considering the growing concerns with Tucson’s natural beauty and a large environmentally conscious population.
“The purpose of rainwater harvesting is storm water management and taking advantage of a renewable resource,” said Ward 3 council aide Holly Lachowicz.
According to Agua Solutions, rainwater harvesting is simply collecting, storing and purifying the naturally soft and pure rainfall that falls upon your roof. The collected rainwater can be used for domestic purposes such as laundry as well as for non-domestic purposes like irrigation. Rain water harvesting proves particularly effective in areas like Tucson where water is scarce and sometime polluted. There are numerous benefits of using collected rainwater, but the most beneficial is the fact that it is free to those who use it.
Watershed Management, according to spokesperson James McAdam, practices two different types of rainwater harvesting. The first is active rainwater harvesting, which, “Captures run-off rainwater into a cistern to be preserved and used to enrich the soil,” McAdam said. The other is passive rainwater harvesting that consists of shaping the Earth in such a way that the runoff rain water sinks back into the ground as opposed to running off into the streets and polluting the environment.
“Passive harvesting is directing the water directly towards plants,” said Nature Conservancy of Arizona’s director of operations Jim Cook, “Active requires the installing of gutters and cisterns for the storage of rainwater for later use.”
According to Lachowicz, the Watershed Management group is involved with numerous projects in the Ward 3 area including water harvesting renovations to the Glenn Road corridor and to neighborhood associations like Samos neighborhood association and the neighborhood at Campbell and Grant.
The most interesting of these projects is that in which Watershed Management works with the Samos Neighborhood Association, a Ward 3 neighborhood, in what would be considered a passive rainwater project, said McAdam. The project is called “Green Streets – Green Neighborhoods” and seeks to show that right-of-way harvesting features that promote native street trees throughout the area. McAdam said the project was funded through a grant from the Arizona Forestry Division.
“The right-of-way harvesting technique consists of altering roads and sidewalks that will make rain water re-usable and beneficial to the environment, as oppose to running off and becoming polluted by things like car oil and dog poop,” said McAdam.
McAdam says that the massive interest in water harvesting techniques can largely be attributed to one man; Brad Lancaster is a Tucson resident and has written the two foremost important books on water harvesting, “Rainwater Harvesting for Dry Lands and Beyond, Volume 1: Guiding Principles to Welcome Rain Into Your Life and Landscape” and “Rainwater Harvesting for Dry Lands and Beyond, Volume 2: Water Harvesting Earthworks”.
In an interview with students from Santa Barbara City College, Lancaster said he became interested in waster harvesting during a trip to Zimbabwe where he met a subsistence farmer that taught him the ways the ways that rainwater can be used to promote life and the environment, and when he related the water problems of Tucson to the subsistence farmer, the farmer told him that he must go back and help solve these problem.
According to Lancaster’s bio page, rainwater harvesting can be used to grow, “Food-bearing shade trees, abundant gardens, and a thriving landscape incorporating wildlife habitat, beauty, edible and medicinal plants and more.”
The Nature Conservancy of Arizona located at 1510 E. Ft. Lowell Rd. is used as the structural example to the rest of the city for how to use rainwater harvesting effectively, according to Cook.
“We were approached four years ago by a small loose network of individuals with the group Tucson Catch Water who are dedicated to explaining the benefits of rainwater harvesting to the community,” said Cook, “They wanted to see if we’d help apply transitions to our landscape to use our site as example displaying rainwater techniques.”
Cook says that the Nature Conservancy of Arizona has assisted in the building of three water harvesting-designed buildings, including the University of Arizona’s dance center. He added that by 2010, a new Pima County ordinance requires commercial property owners to have their buildings equipped to provide irrigation through captured rainwater.
With so many worries about energy conservation and retaining geographical beauty in Tucson, rainwater harvesting techniques are becoming a popular method to conserve water and provide irrigation to the lands throughout all of Tucson, with many residential neighborhood associations, businesses and buildings at the University of Arizona applying the techniques to buildings on campus.
“Living in a desert of low rainfall with a growing population,” said Dorothy Boone of the Nature Conservancy of Arizona, “We need every drop of water we can get and to put it to the very best use. The water is so crucial to our lives, and water harvesting is an inexpensive way of using every drop.”
The Ward 3 council came together with Watershed Management Group in 2006 to start a number of water harvesting programs that would teach and allow residents to re-use rain water as a means of making the area greener and more beautiful. These programs are becoming infinitely more popular in Tucson, especially considering the growing concerns with Tucson’s natural beauty and a large environmentally conscious population.
“The purpose of rainwater harvesting is storm water management and taking advantage of a renewable resource,” said Ward 3 council aide Holly Lachowicz.
According to Agua Solutions, rainwater harvesting is simply collecting, storing and purifying the naturally soft and pure rainfall that falls upon your roof. The collected rainwater can be used for domestic purposes such as laundry as well as for non-domestic purposes like irrigation. Rain water harvesting proves particularly effective in areas like Tucson where water is scarce and sometime polluted. There are numerous benefits of using collected rainwater, but the most beneficial is the fact that it is free to those who use it.
Watershed Management, according to spokesperson James McAdam, practices two different types of rainwater harvesting. The first is active rainwater harvesting, which, “Captures run-off rainwater into a cistern to be preserved and used to enrich the soil,” McAdam said. The other is passive rainwater harvesting that consists of shaping the Earth in such a way that the runoff rain water sinks back into the ground as opposed to running off into the streets and polluting the environment.
“Passive harvesting is directing the water directly towards plants,” said Nature Conservancy of Arizona’s director of operations Jim Cook, “Active requires the installing of gutters and cisterns for the storage of rainwater for later use.”
According to Lachowicz, the Watershed Management group is involved with numerous projects in the Ward 3 area including water harvesting renovations to the Glenn Road corridor and to neighborhood associations like Samos neighborhood association and the neighborhood at Campbell and Grant.
The most interesting of these projects is that in which Watershed Management works with the Samos Neighborhood Association, a Ward 3 neighborhood, in what would be considered a passive rainwater project, said McAdam. The project is called “Green Streets – Green Neighborhoods” and seeks to show that right-of-way harvesting features that promote native street trees throughout the area. McAdam said the project was funded through a grant from the Arizona Forestry Division.
“The right-of-way harvesting technique consists of altering roads and sidewalks that will make rain water re-usable and beneficial to the environment, as oppose to running off and becoming polluted by things like car oil and dog poop,” said McAdam.
McAdam says that the massive interest in water harvesting techniques can largely be attributed to one man; Brad Lancaster is a Tucson resident and has written the two foremost important books on water harvesting, “Rainwater Harvesting for Dry Lands and Beyond, Volume 1: Guiding Principles to Welcome Rain Into Your Life and Landscape” and “Rainwater Harvesting for Dry Lands and Beyond, Volume 2: Water Harvesting Earthworks”.
In an interview with students from Santa Barbara City College, Lancaster said he became interested in waster harvesting during a trip to Zimbabwe where he met a subsistence farmer that taught him the ways the ways that rainwater can be used to promote life and the environment, and when he related the water problems of Tucson to the subsistence farmer, the farmer told him that he must go back and help solve these problem.
According to Lancaster’s bio page, rainwater harvesting can be used to grow, “Food-bearing shade trees, abundant gardens, and a thriving landscape incorporating wildlife habitat, beauty, edible and medicinal plants and more.”
The Nature Conservancy of Arizona located at 1510 E. Ft. Lowell Rd. is used as the structural example to the rest of the city for how to use rainwater harvesting effectively, according to Cook.
“We were approached four years ago by a small loose network of individuals with the group Tucson Catch Water who are dedicated to explaining the benefits of rainwater harvesting to the community,” said Cook, “They wanted to see if we’d help apply transitions to our landscape to use our site as example displaying rainwater techniques.”
Cook says that the Nature Conservancy of Arizona has assisted in the building of three water harvesting-designed buildings, including the University of Arizona’s dance center. He added that by 2010, a new Pima County ordinance requires commercial property owners to have their buildings equipped to provide irrigation through captured rainwater.
With so many worries about energy conservation and retaining geographical beauty in Tucson, rainwater harvesting techniques are becoming a popular method to conserve water and provide irrigation to the lands throughout all of Tucson, with many residential neighborhood associations, businesses and buildings at the University of Arizona applying the techniques to buildings on campus.
“Living in a desert of low rainfall with a growing population,” said Dorothy Boone of the Nature Conservancy of Arizona, “We need every drop of water we can get and to put it to the very best use. The water is so crucial to our lives, and water harvesting is an inexpensive way of using every drop.”
Wildcat FarmVille story
Casual gamers and social networkers at the University of Arizona and around the country can’t get enough of FarmVille.
Created by Zynga, a video game developer based out of San Francisco, and offered as an application through Facebook, FarmVille is the most popular gaming application on Facebook with 65 million users registered, according to the game’s Facebook page. The game’s popularity is ever present on the University of Arizona campus, with kids everywhere from the ILC to UA libraries to home on their laptops being seen playing the game. The game’s popularity refuses to subside, even despite controversies of advertisement scams being implemented through the application.
The extremely fast rise in popularity surprised the game’s developers. Zynga’s lead developer Amitt Mahajan said, “The (developing) team estimated that the game would attract maybe 6,000 users in the first weekend. We were blown away when tens of thousands of users had signed up by the end of the weekend.”
Many students use the game as a casual way of blowing off steam during a stressful school day. David Kim, a University of Arizona computer engineering softmore and FarmVille enthusiast said, “For me, the game is a stress reliever, a distraction.”
Zynga, which is also responsible for other Facebook game applications like Mafia Wars, Café World and Texas Hold’ Em, first introduced FarmVille to Facebook in June of this year. Mahajan said, “We were mad about creating social games, and we were attracted to the idea of a farm. There have been online farming games before, and we wanted to give it our own unique twist.”
The game utilizes the program Real Time Simulation, which according to Graduate Research Assistant of the University of Arizona’s computer science department Wesley Kerr, allows the user to tend to their crops digitally on a lifelike human time frame. Real time simulation is not new, he said, having been utilized in role playing computer games as far back as 1999. Kerr said that FarmVille and other Zynga games are the first games that utilize real time simulation to be marketed to crowds of “casual gamers”.
While some professors on campus seem to be concerned about games like FarmVille distracting students from studies and class work, advocates of the game claim it is not too much of a problem because of the minimal time it takes to play. Kim says he plays FarmVille no more than 10 to 20 minutes a day and would never use it to avoid work because, “Once you harvest (the crops) there’s nothing more you could do with the game during that session.”
However, some users/students use the game during class. Mike Crane, a senior majoring in Psychology said, “It’s a good way to kill time during class, it’s simple and entertaining and doesn’t require any strategy.” Though he also added the game doesn’t interfere with his work as he never plays more than 30 minutes in a day.
“It shouldn’t be too disruptive,” said Kerr, “It only takes about 5 minutes to play. It’s not much different than checking your E-mail, except you’re tending your farm.”
There is no doubt that FarmVille and other Zynga games’ (Mafia Wars and Café World are the second and third most popular gaming applications on Facebook, according to an article recently published in the New York Times) popularity directly relates to the games using social networking sites as their medium. Kerr said, “Facebook is a good medium to market games (like FarmVille) to the casual gamer. Facebook is the current online hangout spot. As Facebook’s popularity grew, so did these gaming applications.”
Controversies and accusations of advertising scams surround FarmVille. FarmVille offers the gamer to play the game more efficiently through the exchange of real cash for “virtual cash”. According to an article recently published in Time Magazine, advertisement offers for things such as NetFlix give the user the opportunity for more digital cash to buy crops to be used in the game, and other less legitimate advertisers offer digital cash in exchange for the user taking an IQ test. Once the test is completed, the user is asked for a name and a cell phone number, once the name and number go through the user has unwittingly signed up and will be billed for a service they most likely never wanted.
Kim said he has seen these false advertisements for IQ tests, but says they’re “pretty obvious” when he sees them. Crane agrees that the advertisements were easy to identify, saying, “When they (the advertisements) ask for a credit card it should raise a flag that the advertisement is bogus.”
The Zynga staff acknowledged these false advertisements and is trying to erase them from the FarmVille application. Mahajan says he wishes they were more careful about policing the application and its advertisements when it was launched, and that Zynga is working to rid FarmVille of advertising scams, “We’ve removed all the offers from the game. The only way to now get digital cash is directly through credit card payments.”
Advertising scams or not, there is little question that FarmVille is a massive success at the University of Arizona and throughout schools in the nation. Unfortunately, the figures that would indicate the number of FarmVille users on a given campus are not available, according to Mahajan. Nevertheless, one needs to go on their friend list on Facebook to see how many of their friends are using FarmVille and the implication should be obvious; FarmVille’s popularity is through the roof and still increasing.
Created by Zynga, a video game developer based out of San Francisco, and offered as an application through Facebook, FarmVille is the most popular gaming application on Facebook with 65 million users registered, according to the game’s Facebook page. The game’s popularity is ever present on the University of Arizona campus, with kids everywhere from the ILC to UA libraries to home on their laptops being seen playing the game. The game’s popularity refuses to subside, even despite controversies of advertisement scams being implemented through the application.
The extremely fast rise in popularity surprised the game’s developers. Zynga’s lead developer Amitt Mahajan said, “The (developing) team estimated that the game would attract maybe 6,000 users in the first weekend. We were blown away when tens of thousands of users had signed up by the end of the weekend.”
Many students use the game as a casual way of blowing off steam during a stressful school day. David Kim, a University of Arizona computer engineering softmore and FarmVille enthusiast said, “For me, the game is a stress reliever, a distraction.”
Zynga, which is also responsible for other Facebook game applications like Mafia Wars, Café World and Texas Hold’ Em, first introduced FarmVille to Facebook in June of this year. Mahajan said, “We were mad about creating social games, and we were attracted to the idea of a farm. There have been online farming games before, and we wanted to give it our own unique twist.”
The game utilizes the program Real Time Simulation, which according to Graduate Research Assistant of the University of Arizona’s computer science department Wesley Kerr, allows the user to tend to their crops digitally on a lifelike human time frame. Real time simulation is not new, he said, having been utilized in role playing computer games as far back as 1999. Kerr said that FarmVille and other Zynga games are the first games that utilize real time simulation to be marketed to crowds of “casual gamers”.
While some professors on campus seem to be concerned about games like FarmVille distracting students from studies and class work, advocates of the game claim it is not too much of a problem because of the minimal time it takes to play. Kim says he plays FarmVille no more than 10 to 20 minutes a day and would never use it to avoid work because, “Once you harvest (the crops) there’s nothing more you could do with the game during that session.”
However, some users/students use the game during class. Mike Crane, a senior majoring in Psychology said, “It’s a good way to kill time during class, it’s simple and entertaining and doesn’t require any strategy.” Though he also added the game doesn’t interfere with his work as he never plays more than 30 minutes in a day.
“It shouldn’t be too disruptive,” said Kerr, “It only takes about 5 minutes to play. It’s not much different than checking your E-mail, except you’re tending your farm.”
There is no doubt that FarmVille and other Zynga games’ (Mafia Wars and Café World are the second and third most popular gaming applications on Facebook, according to an article recently published in the New York Times) popularity directly relates to the games using social networking sites as their medium. Kerr said, “Facebook is a good medium to market games (like FarmVille) to the casual gamer. Facebook is the current online hangout spot. As Facebook’s popularity grew, so did these gaming applications.”
Controversies and accusations of advertising scams surround FarmVille. FarmVille offers the gamer to play the game more efficiently through the exchange of real cash for “virtual cash”. According to an article recently published in Time Magazine, advertisement offers for things such as NetFlix give the user the opportunity for more digital cash to buy crops to be used in the game, and other less legitimate advertisers offer digital cash in exchange for the user taking an IQ test. Once the test is completed, the user is asked for a name and a cell phone number, once the name and number go through the user has unwittingly signed up and will be billed for a service they most likely never wanted.
Kim said he has seen these false advertisements for IQ tests, but says they’re “pretty obvious” when he sees them. Crane agrees that the advertisements were easy to identify, saying, “When they (the advertisements) ask for a credit card it should raise a flag that the advertisement is bogus.”
The Zynga staff acknowledged these false advertisements and is trying to erase them from the FarmVille application. Mahajan says he wishes they were more careful about policing the application and its advertisements when it was launched, and that Zynga is working to rid FarmVille of advertising scams, “We’ve removed all the offers from the game. The only way to now get digital cash is directly through credit card payments.”
Advertising scams or not, there is little question that FarmVille is a massive success at the University of Arizona and throughout schools in the nation. Unfortunately, the figures that would indicate the number of FarmVille users on a given campus are not available, according to Mahajan. Nevertheless, one needs to go on their friend list on Facebook to see how many of their friends are using FarmVille and the implication should be obvious; FarmVille’s popularity is through the roof and still increasing.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Mandatory Blog 3
Logos refers to the logical or rational proofs found within a piece. Aristotle believed there were four logical methods used to help people make their arguments clear and powerful when faced with complex issues. All four types of reasoning begin with a “premise”, or any statement assumed prior to the argument. Scientific demonstration consists or arguments beginning from premises that are true or that the “experts” accept as true, i.e., these are the facts used in one’s argument. Dialectical reasoning consists of arguments that are less sure of the truth of the argument’s premises, but nevertheless the premises are accepted by people who are generally considered to be exceptionally wise, such as if referring to the fast rise and falls that are inherent to the United States’ economy, one could quote Nathaniel Hawthorne’s infamous, “Families are always rising and falling in America,” passage. Rhetorical reasoning has premises that are drawn from widely accepted beliefs of a community. Rhetorical reasoning can often consist of commonplaces that aren’t necessarily true, such as members of the Aryan brotherhood thinking unanimously that the white man is the Earth’s dominant and most astute species. The fourth, false reasoning, is just as it sounds, starting the argument form a false premise, something that is measurably not true. The ancient rhetoricians always began their argument from the premise that is most widely accepted as true, and moved to those that were less so.
In the essay, “The Missing Story of Ourselves: Poor Women, Power and the Politics of Feminist Representation”, Vivvan C. Addair uses a logical argument that consists of both her personal experiences with poverty in the United States, as well as addressing some of the commonplaces surrounding poverty-stricken women that she has faced, to create both dialectical and rhetorical reasoning.
She talks of her decision to enter community college to receive her GED in order to win her away from poverty and create a better life for herself and her daughter. She tells us that in the year she entered college, 1987, there were 350,000 welfare recipients entered in college. But, in 1998, congress instituted the “Personal Responsibility and Work Opportunity Reconciliation Act”. In a scientific argument in which she presents us the facts of what happened to welfare reforms, she tells us this law, “Gravely curtailed the ability of poor women to garner authority and to rewrite their own stories through education in a way that positively altered the trajectories and conditions of their lives.” The law apparently created inhibiting forces against those that accept welfare, such as highly strict work obligations that cut into peoples’ ability to receive a higher education.
In her rhetorical reasoning, she addressed the commonplaces of women on welfare. She refers to legislators and witnesses making references to “welfare queen” stereotypes, “Women who deliberately avoid both work and marriage; spend their welfare checks on liquor, drugs and fast cars; and produce large broods of children so as to qualify for even a larger government dole.” She then contrast this image with hardworking and respectable women with herself, who clearly doesn’t fall into this stereotype, and breaks down the commonplace.
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In the essay, “The Missing Story of Ourselves: Poor Women, Power and the Politics of Feminist Representation”, Vivvan C. Addair uses a logical argument that consists of both her personal experiences with poverty in the United States, as well as addressing some of the commonplaces surrounding poverty-stricken women that she has faced, to create both dialectical and rhetorical reasoning.
She talks of her decision to enter community college to receive her GED in order to win her away from poverty and create a better life for herself and her daughter. She tells us that in the year she entered college, 1987, there were 350,000 welfare recipients entered in college. But, in 1998, congress instituted the “Personal Responsibility and Work Opportunity Reconciliation Act”. In a scientific argument in which she presents us the facts of what happened to welfare reforms, she tells us this law, “Gravely curtailed the ability of poor women to garner authority and to rewrite their own stories through education in a way that positively altered the trajectories and conditions of their lives.” The law apparently created inhibiting forces against those that accept welfare, such as highly strict work obligations that cut into peoples’ ability to receive a higher education.
In her rhetorical reasoning, she addressed the commonplaces of women on welfare. She refers to legislators and witnesses making references to “welfare queen” stereotypes, “Women who deliberately avoid both work and marriage; spend their welfare checks on liquor, drugs and fast cars; and produce large broods of children so as to qualify for even a larger government dole.” She then contrast this image with hardworking and respectable women with herself, who clearly doesn’t fall into this stereotype, and breaks down the commonplace.
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Sunday, November 8, 2009
Alternative mental care part 2
Hardy said, “All behavior stems from childhood trauma before the age of eight. Bad relationships, anger, sadness, depression and other health problems are all treatable by hypnotherapy. Hypnotherapy allows the person to get in touch with repressed problems and allows them to address them so they can heal faster.”
One of the benefits of hypnotherapy appears to be the potential for very fast results, “Three two-hour hypnosis sessions can yield the same results as six months of therapy, it’s almost like healing backwards as we identify the underlining problems first, then work the individual through it,” Hardy said.
Ruddy, as stated previusly, works in multple forms of alternative therapy, but is noted for her work in neuro-linguistic patterning. According to Ruddy, “NLP is a light trance in which the patient is still conscious, a sort of mini-hypnosis. It strives to understand that every individual receives information differently and by tapping into the unconscious and then using linguistics to talk the person through his/her problem, healing can begin.”
Despite many individuals who have used NLP to work through emotional issues, it is, according to the Oxford English Dictionary, devoid of any empirical evidence supporting its claims. Because of this, it has had little to no support from the scientific communitty, and has no impact on mainstream psychology.
Despite this, practitioners like Ruddy and Hardy argue NLP as an effective therapeutic treatment.
A University of Arizona senior, Zachary Roughan, recently tried NLP and hypnosis to combat a case of stress-induced insomnia. Roughan was previously prescribed to a sleeping pill by a psychiatrist, but disliked that he wasn’t able to sleep without it.
Roughan did three sessions of hypno-therapy and NLP while home over the summer.
“It wasn’t miraculous, but I did end up sleeping better,” he said, “I learned that because of my older brother who was heavily into drugs and screwing up, that I feel pressure to make my parents proud. The stress was getting to me and manifesting as insomnia.”
Whether the scientific community is buying it or not, there is no question that these alternative therapies have become very popular and in many cases yield results.
Dr. Lila Flagler, who practices alternative therapies like homeopathic medicine with her husband Dr. Samuel Flagler out of their private clinic at 6737 E. Camino Principal, simply explains the trend.
“People are dissatisfied with drugs and are looking for something that digs deeper into the individual,” she said, “Drugs like Prozac mask the issue instead of allowing the person to confront the issue and heal. The drugs suppress the symptoms, but the the disorder is still present.”
One of the benefits of hypnotherapy appears to be the potential for very fast results, “Three two-hour hypnosis sessions can yield the same results as six months of therapy, it’s almost like healing backwards as we identify the underlining problems first, then work the individual through it,” Hardy said.
Ruddy, as stated previusly, works in multple forms of alternative therapy, but is noted for her work in neuro-linguistic patterning. According to Ruddy, “NLP is a light trance in which the patient is still conscious, a sort of mini-hypnosis. It strives to understand that every individual receives information differently and by tapping into the unconscious and then using linguistics to talk the person through his/her problem, healing can begin.”
Despite many individuals who have used NLP to work through emotional issues, it is, according to the Oxford English Dictionary, devoid of any empirical evidence supporting its claims. Because of this, it has had little to no support from the scientific communitty, and has no impact on mainstream psychology.
Despite this, practitioners like Ruddy and Hardy argue NLP as an effective therapeutic treatment.
A University of Arizona senior, Zachary Roughan, recently tried NLP and hypnosis to combat a case of stress-induced insomnia. Roughan was previously prescribed to a sleeping pill by a psychiatrist, but disliked that he wasn’t able to sleep without it.
Roughan did three sessions of hypno-therapy and NLP while home over the summer.
“It wasn’t miraculous, but I did end up sleeping better,” he said, “I learned that because of my older brother who was heavily into drugs and screwing up, that I feel pressure to make my parents proud. The stress was getting to me and manifesting as insomnia.”
Whether the scientific community is buying it or not, there is no question that these alternative therapies have become very popular and in many cases yield results.
Dr. Lila Flagler, who practices alternative therapies like homeopathic medicine with her husband Dr. Samuel Flagler out of their private clinic at 6737 E. Camino Principal, simply explains the trend.
“People are dissatisfied with drugs and are looking for something that digs deeper into the individual,” she said, “Drugs like Prozac mask the issue instead of allowing the person to confront the issue and heal. The drugs suppress the symptoms, but the the disorder is still present.”
Alternative mental care
Tucson residents looking to improve their lives and mental health opt for alternative methods of therapy over conventional therapy, a trend that holds true to all of the United States.
According to an article recently published in the New York Times, there are more than 80 million people in the United States using some form of alternative medicine, and because of this, scientists research these alternative methods of health care more empirically than before.
According to data gathered by the National Center for Complementary and Alternative Medicine and the National Center for Health Statistics, 38 percent of adults and 12 percent of children use alternative therapy in the United States. True to the growing industry in alternative health, there are over 200 private alternative therapy clinics in Tucson; some of which use various forms of alternative therapy in the field of mental health.
One such clinic is Counseling Concepts, LLC, located at 336. E. Ft. Lowell Rd. The clinic is run by founder Dr. Jo Ruddy and Jodi Hardy. Ruddy worked in the field of traditional therapy for over 20 years, but eventually became interested in using metaphysics after becoming disenchanted with conventional forms of therapy.
“In traditional therapy, you’re diagnosing the patient by their “mental illness” like it’s a disease,” Ruddy said, “When using metaphysical techniques it’s about hope, it’s not about being sick it’s about getting well.”
Counseling Concepts, LLC uses a number of different therapies, all of which are practiced in accordance with the individual being treated and their particular problem.
Ruddy is a “Metaphysician”. According to Ruddy, this term is comprised of the word Meta meaning “beyond” and physics, therefore it refers to something beyond what we can prove is real.
“Say I have a couple come in who have been disagreeing about everything,” said Ruddy, “Metaphysical counseling will allow the couple to go beyond their own normal perceptions and find out how their unconscious minds are tapping into one another and making each other tick.”
In addition to holding a master’s degree in counseling and doctorate in philosophy of religion, Ruddy is a certified practitioner in Neuro-linguistic Patterning (NLP), hypnotherapy, Reiki, Psych-K and Holistic Life Coaching. She specializes in the study of the unconcious mind, “The unconscious mind holds the cycle where emotions, memories and addictive behaviors are held,” Ruddy said, “Through metaphysical healing we seek to connect peoples’ unconscious minds to their bodies and once they tap into this they are more acutely aware of their problems and more likely to heal.”
In the poor economy, counselors are seeing more patients come in with severe bouts of depression. Ruddy believes this new tendency towards a preference for alternative mental care stems from the whole globe being, “Worried about mortality and the world.” Two of their offered treatments, hypnotherapy and neuro-linguistic patterning, show effectiveness in the treatment of depression.
Hardy holds a master’s degree in counseling and received her hypnotherapy certification from the Wellness Institute in Issaquah, WA. She practices both traditional talk therapy and hypnotherapy at Counseling Concepts, LLC. She claims hypnotherapy is effective in the treatment of any presenting problem, including depression and problems stemming from depression.
According to an article recently published in the New York Times, there are more than 80 million people in the United States using some form of alternative medicine, and because of this, scientists research these alternative methods of health care more empirically than before.
According to data gathered by the National Center for Complementary and Alternative Medicine and the National Center for Health Statistics, 38 percent of adults and 12 percent of children use alternative therapy in the United States. True to the growing industry in alternative health, there are over 200 private alternative therapy clinics in Tucson; some of which use various forms of alternative therapy in the field of mental health.
One such clinic is Counseling Concepts, LLC, located at 336. E. Ft. Lowell Rd. The clinic is run by founder Dr. Jo Ruddy and Jodi Hardy. Ruddy worked in the field of traditional therapy for over 20 years, but eventually became interested in using metaphysics after becoming disenchanted with conventional forms of therapy.
“In traditional therapy, you’re diagnosing the patient by their “mental illness” like it’s a disease,” Ruddy said, “When using metaphysical techniques it’s about hope, it’s not about being sick it’s about getting well.”
Counseling Concepts, LLC uses a number of different therapies, all of which are practiced in accordance with the individual being treated and their particular problem.
Ruddy is a “Metaphysician”. According to Ruddy, this term is comprised of the word Meta meaning “beyond” and physics, therefore it refers to something beyond what we can prove is real.
“Say I have a couple come in who have been disagreeing about everything,” said Ruddy, “Metaphysical counseling will allow the couple to go beyond their own normal perceptions and find out how their unconscious minds are tapping into one another and making each other tick.”
In addition to holding a master’s degree in counseling and doctorate in philosophy of religion, Ruddy is a certified practitioner in Neuro-linguistic Patterning (NLP), hypnotherapy, Reiki, Psych-K and Holistic Life Coaching. She specializes in the study of the unconcious mind, “The unconscious mind holds the cycle where emotions, memories and addictive behaviors are held,” Ruddy said, “Through metaphysical healing we seek to connect peoples’ unconscious minds to their bodies and once they tap into this they are more acutely aware of their problems and more likely to heal.”
In the poor economy, counselors are seeing more patients come in with severe bouts of depression. Ruddy believes this new tendency towards a preference for alternative mental care stems from the whole globe being, “Worried about mortality and the world.” Two of their offered treatments, hypnotherapy and neuro-linguistic patterning, show effectiveness in the treatment of depression.
Hardy holds a master’s degree in counseling and received her hypnotherapy certification from the Wellness Institute in Issaquah, WA. She practices both traditional talk therapy and hypnotherapy at Counseling Concepts, LLC. She claims hypnotherapy is effective in the treatment of any presenting problem, including depression and problems stemming from depression.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Mandatory Blog 2
Chapter 2 of “Ancient Rhetorics” has to do with the dilemma that comes to a rhetor when he/she realizes that no two rhetorical situations are ever the same, because every rhetorical situation, “Presents its own unique set of challenges.” Because of this, every rhetorical situation occurs in a time and place that is singular and cannot be repeated. Rhetors must wait for the perfect time, in which the audience is fully attentive, to deliver a rhetorical argument. The right rhetorical moment was known to the ancient Greeks as “kairos”.
According to the text, the Greeks had two conceptions of time. The first was what we are used, linear and measurable time. The Greeks called this chronos. Kairos on the other hand, is a situational kind of time, or an “opportunity”. Kairos has little to do with duration of time; moreover it refers to the right circumstances that bring on a certain situation that allows for an argument to be made to the right audience. The text reads, “Kairos draws attention to the mutability of rhetoric, to the ever-changing arguments that can be found in connection with a particular issue.” Meaning, this term, the situational notion of time, shows that rhetoric itself is a living and changing organism; no rhetorical argument every stays completely the same, but it changes within the situations that it presents itself in. This happens because the people who are paying attention to the issue being argued will often change their minds, beliefs, ages, locations, communities, identities, jobs, and other things.
Because of its mutability, kairos-based arguments cannot be set in stone prior to the delivery of the rhetoric because the rhetor has to constantly sharpen his/her speaking in order to attune to the various audiences and places he /she might be speaking too. The rhetor must understand the history of the issue, and also why the argument was poorly received in various settings and audiences. He/she must be able to identify with the opposing argument and be able to combat it even without a set of rules to guide him/her.
Kairos can clearly serve as a means of invention, because it is the, “Art of discovering all of the arguments made available by a given rhetorical situation.” You must always understand the interests of an audience, and also why these interests might interfere with your rhetorical presentation. You will need to challenge their interests, and subsequently, their beliefs, in order to rhetorically persuade them of your argument.
A chreia is a brief saying or action that immediately makes a point. It was one of two progymnasta used by the ancients, the other being tale. These were used to offer short and catchy lessons that were easily-identifiable by the reader. They allow a rhetor to amplify a theme, that is, make it more pronounced and easy to understand.
Proverbs are common sayings that any member of a certain culture knows. These terms include things like, “Be careful what you wish for.” These terms are “persuasive or expository”, meaning they are either to persuade the audience to do something, or dissuade them from doing something. They are very useful in engaging the reader and grabbing attention.
According to the text, the Greeks had two conceptions of time. The first was what we are used, linear and measurable time. The Greeks called this chronos. Kairos on the other hand, is a situational kind of time, or an “opportunity”. Kairos has little to do with duration of time; moreover it refers to the right circumstances that bring on a certain situation that allows for an argument to be made to the right audience. The text reads, “Kairos draws attention to the mutability of rhetoric, to the ever-changing arguments that can be found in connection with a particular issue.” Meaning, this term, the situational notion of time, shows that rhetoric itself is a living and changing organism; no rhetorical argument every stays completely the same, but it changes within the situations that it presents itself in. This happens because the people who are paying attention to the issue being argued will often change their minds, beliefs, ages, locations, communities, identities, jobs, and other things.
Because of its mutability, kairos-based arguments cannot be set in stone prior to the delivery of the rhetoric because the rhetor has to constantly sharpen his/her speaking in order to attune to the various audiences and places he /she might be speaking too. The rhetor must understand the history of the issue, and also why the argument was poorly received in various settings and audiences. He/she must be able to identify with the opposing argument and be able to combat it even without a set of rules to guide him/her.
Kairos can clearly serve as a means of invention, because it is the, “Art of discovering all of the arguments made available by a given rhetorical situation.” You must always understand the interests of an audience, and also why these interests might interfere with your rhetorical presentation. You will need to challenge their interests, and subsequently, their beliefs, in order to rhetorically persuade them of your argument.
A chreia is a brief saying or action that immediately makes a point. It was one of two progymnasta used by the ancients, the other being tale. These were used to offer short and catchy lessons that were easily-identifiable by the reader. They allow a rhetor to amplify a theme, that is, make it more pronounced and easy to understand.
Proverbs are common sayings that any member of a certain culture knows. These terms include things like, “Be careful what you wish for.” These terms are “persuasive or expository”, meaning they are either to persuade the audience to do something, or dissuade them from doing something. They are very useful in engaging the reader and grabbing attention.
A slightly better story I wrote (cont)
The Auto Service Association says the auto repairs business will stay alive through focusing on training, especially with the influx of hybrid vehicles into the new market place, “It’s very hard to find good mechanics,” said Stephens, “I can’t hire right now anyways, but I’ve been able to keep a core staff (of well qualified mechanics), I put in 12 hour days, and my guys put in 10 hour days.”
It is the independently owned used car sales dealers that are reporting stable sales, and these businesses are doing this through implementing programs that make it easier for people on low incomes to buy decent and affordable cars. “They (used car sales) are emotional sales, and those companies are very good at customizing affordable deals for people who need them the most,” Johnson said.
Weiss Guys Auto Sales, a family owned used car dealership located at 2976 N. 1st Ave., has been very successful at bringing in customers through programs designed for people who under most circumstances couldn’t buy a new car. They use a lease to own program that allows people to return their leased vehicles at any time as long as they don’t exceed a monthly mileage maximum and if the car is still in decent shape, said Paula Weiss, co-owner of Weiss Guys Auto Sales for six years. “We all use an outside finance company, Austin Titles, which finances people with bad credit (to buy a new vehicle), they charge a rate of 18 per cent as opposed to the usual 29.9 per cent,” Weiss said.
People also seem to enjoy the friendly service that is offered by privately owned family businesses such as Weiss Guys Auto Sales. They’re friendly appeal is often attributed as to why they’ve been rather successful in the face of economic recession, “(I just use) southern charm, that’s all there is to it,” said Mike Cocoer, the lot manager of Weiss Guys Auto Sales, “people like to interact with someone that’s genuine.”
Though independently owned car businesses in Tucson have been relatively successful, they are not recession proof. Because the automotive industry is in such disarray, keeping up stock of good vehicles has proven difficult, said Cocoer. Cocoer said that used car dealerships such as Weiss need to find new methods to bring in more cars and customers, “We need to be more focused on marketing, we need to advertise more to reach customers, air time and radio,” he said, “the more you’re out there, the more people see what you got”.
To stay alive in the economy, Johnson had advice for both small businesses and corporations. She said that small privately owned dealerships need to “scale down’, while the corporations need to innovate. She said that if the auto sales industry is going to survive, “it needs to allow itself to fail.” She continued, “We all want safety nets, but bails outs aren’t conducive to innovation, short-term solutions won’t facilitate a permanent solution.”
It is the independently owned used car sales dealers that are reporting stable sales, and these businesses are doing this through implementing programs that make it easier for people on low incomes to buy decent and affordable cars. “They (used car sales) are emotional sales, and those companies are very good at customizing affordable deals for people who need them the most,” Johnson said.
Weiss Guys Auto Sales, a family owned used car dealership located at 2976 N. 1st Ave., has been very successful at bringing in customers through programs designed for people who under most circumstances couldn’t buy a new car. They use a lease to own program that allows people to return their leased vehicles at any time as long as they don’t exceed a monthly mileage maximum and if the car is still in decent shape, said Paula Weiss, co-owner of Weiss Guys Auto Sales for six years. “We all use an outside finance company, Austin Titles, which finances people with bad credit (to buy a new vehicle), they charge a rate of 18 per cent as opposed to the usual 29.9 per cent,” Weiss said.
People also seem to enjoy the friendly service that is offered by privately owned family businesses such as Weiss Guys Auto Sales. They’re friendly appeal is often attributed as to why they’ve been rather successful in the face of economic recession, “(I just use) southern charm, that’s all there is to it,” said Mike Cocoer, the lot manager of Weiss Guys Auto Sales, “people like to interact with someone that’s genuine.”
Though independently owned car businesses in Tucson have been relatively successful, they are not recession proof. Because the automotive industry is in such disarray, keeping up stock of good vehicles has proven difficult, said Cocoer. Cocoer said that used car dealerships such as Weiss need to find new methods to bring in more cars and customers, “We need to be more focused on marketing, we need to advertise more to reach customers, air time and radio,” he said, “the more you’re out there, the more people see what you got”.
To stay alive in the economy, Johnson had advice for both small businesses and corporations. She said that small privately owned dealerships need to “scale down’, while the corporations need to innovate. She said that if the auto sales industry is going to survive, “it needs to allow itself to fail.” She continued, “We all want safety nets, but bails outs aren’t conducive to innovation, short-term solutions won’t facilitate a permanent solution.”
A slightly better story I wrote
The automotive sales and auto repairs shops in Tucson are doing very poorly in the current state of economic woes, but many privately owned used car dealers report stable sales due to programs targeting low-income buyers.
In times of economic despair, people are far less likely to buy new cars, and in 2008, car companies reported decreases in sales in all types of cars, from 14 per cent for smaller cars to 50 per cent for large SUV’s, according to the American Automobile Association. Strangely, auto repairs shops’ numbers are down as well, with many in the Craigin-Keeling area of Tucson reporting profits falling over 20 per cent from last year.
The auto-sales industry is doing extremely poor and Tucson is not unique to that fact. According to the U.S. Census Bureau, motor vehicles and parts dealers are reporting sales down over $20 billion from 2006.
Experts attribute the decline of the automobile industry as they do much of the fallen industries in the economy, to the rising unemployment and scarcity of jobs. Professor Cathleen A. Johnson of the University of Arizona economics department said, “This is an “economic winter”, countless jobs are being lost and the problem with that is that they can’t be replaced, the economy will come back at some point but the recovery could take five years.”
Johnson also believes that much of the automotive industry’s troubles stem from poor decision making in the executive offices accepting bailouts instead of trying to work out long time recovery plans. “I am tired of bad-thinking executives,” she said, “The more intervention (from the government) and the swing backs will be moderate and not real.”
In states of economic hardship, auto repair shops tend to do better than auto sales companies, and nationally this seems to be the case. According to the Auto Service Association, in times of recession people are more likely to hold onto old vehicles, and in 2008, 51 per cent of shop owners reported increases in profits. Yet, some of Tucson’s auto repair shops in the Keeling area are reporting falling profits.
Mike Stephens, who has owned Sports and Imports Auto Repairs on 30 E. Jacinto St., for 11 years, said that his profits have fallen 25 per cent from last year. “Those numbers aren’t unique,” he said, “All shop owners in the area are doing badly, people are holding onto their money.”
Stephens has even had to refuse people service unless they absolutely need it, having seen problems with people not being able to make payments on basic repairs.
Stephens said that he is keeping his shop alive through accepting alternative methods of pay, “We’ll start seeing more bartering and exchange of service,” he said, “If an eye doctor comes in here I’ll give him free service because I need an eye-check.”
In times of economic despair, people are far less likely to buy new cars, and in 2008, car companies reported decreases in sales in all types of cars, from 14 per cent for smaller cars to 50 per cent for large SUV’s, according to the American Automobile Association. Strangely, auto repairs shops’ numbers are down as well, with many in the Craigin-Keeling area of Tucson reporting profits falling over 20 per cent from last year.
The auto-sales industry is doing extremely poor and Tucson is not unique to that fact. According to the U.S. Census Bureau, motor vehicles and parts dealers are reporting sales down over $20 billion from 2006.
Experts attribute the decline of the automobile industry as they do much of the fallen industries in the economy, to the rising unemployment and scarcity of jobs. Professor Cathleen A. Johnson of the University of Arizona economics department said, “This is an “economic winter”, countless jobs are being lost and the problem with that is that they can’t be replaced, the economy will come back at some point but the recovery could take five years.”
Johnson also believes that much of the automotive industry’s troubles stem from poor decision making in the executive offices accepting bailouts instead of trying to work out long time recovery plans. “I am tired of bad-thinking executives,” she said, “The more intervention (from the government) and the swing backs will be moderate and not real.”
In states of economic hardship, auto repair shops tend to do better than auto sales companies, and nationally this seems to be the case. According to the Auto Service Association, in times of recession people are more likely to hold onto old vehicles, and in 2008, 51 per cent of shop owners reported increases in profits. Yet, some of Tucson’s auto repair shops in the Keeling area are reporting falling profits.
Mike Stephens, who has owned Sports and Imports Auto Repairs on 30 E. Jacinto St., for 11 years, said that his profits have fallen 25 per cent from last year. “Those numbers aren’t unique,” he said, “All shop owners in the area are doing badly, people are holding onto their money.”
Stephens has even had to refuse people service unless they absolutely need it, having seen problems with people not being able to make payments on basic repairs.
Stephens said that he is keeping his shop alive through accepting alternative methods of pay, “We’ll start seeing more bartering and exchange of service,” he said, “If an eye doctor comes in here I’ll give him free service because I need an eye-check.”
A very poor story I wrote in Journalism
This is a product of the journalistic dilemma of people not wanting to talk to you:
Helen Keeling Elementary School historically scores poorly on standardized testing, and because of budget cuts and other issues, the scores continue to drop.
Keeling Elementary is a small kindergarten to 5th grade school made of a student body of 482 located at 2837 N. Los Altos Ave. and part of the Amphitheater Unified School District. There are 37 teachers on staff, making for a student-teacher ratio of 13.1, which is actually smaller than the rest of Arizona’s 21.3 student-teacher ratio. Despite small class sizes, students still seem to be struggling on standardized testing, which is indicative of the vast amount of other problems the school faces.
Keeling Elementary saw drops in their percent passing rating in all categories on Arizona’s Instrument to Measure Standards, AIMS, in 2008. According to the Arizona Department of Education, the school fell from 68 percent to 64 percent passing in math, from 58 percent to 55 percent passing in reading subject and from 64 to 62 percent in writing. This is far below Arizona’s state passing averages in 2008; 74 percent were passing in math, 69 percent were passing reading and 70 percent were passing writing.
In a state that is according to the U.S. Census 49th in the country for passing standardized tests, these passing ratings at Keeling Elementary are alarming. Budget cuts are much to blame for Keeling and the rest of Arizona schools’ lack of success, and Arizona legislature passed budget cuts this year that will see nearly $133 million taken away from K-12 education. Arizona is already last in the nation for spending on individual students, and this statistic is not deterring legislature, who are hoping the cuts will lessen the $1.6 billion state deficit, away from making more cuts,
“There isn’t enough money in the budget to get the things I need to do my job,” said Keeling Elementary health assistant Helen Sunstedt, “My good thermometer broke and they replace it with some ancient thermometer that takes me 10 seconds to get a read on a child’s temperature, we’re losing the basic necessities.”
Keeling Elementary is located in the Keeling neighborhood association, one of Tucson’s most drug-ridden and violent areas. According to Tucson police, the area has mean drug arrests and violent crimes that are from 4 to 6 times the mean of Tucson’s. Because of this, the school can’t help but see the area’s criminal aspect, especially among the parents. School Administrative Assistant Michelle Howard said, “There is a huge lack of parental involvement among our students, some parents just don’t seem to help kids at all.” This lack of parental guidance could partly account for the school’s poor scoring on standardized testing.
The school has also seen problems with substance abuse among parents, and has had to take action against the parents on separate occasions. Kellie Rogers, the school’s Educational Assistant and clerk, said she sees the crime problem’s effect on the school “constantly”. She said, “The kids seem to know way too much about it (drugs and crime), we’ve had parents who’ve come in intoxicated, and of course we can’t allow them to take their children home on account of the children’s safety. I feel I have a sense of when people are under the influence because I’ve seen it so much while working with the parents here.”
The school also has problems with behavior, but due to the budget cuts, classes that were formerly put into place to separate children with behavioral problems from the attentive students have been cut, creating a disruptive class environment that is not conducive to education. Rogers, who was formerly a teacher in one of these classes, said, “They (the classes) were very draining to work in, we had three teachers for 15 kids all of whom has behavioral issues. Even worse, the parents seemed uninvolved and unwilling to work to create a better education for their child.”
The school also had to lay off its school resource officer. Sam Molina lost his job at Keeling Elementary due to the budget cuts, making the school lack a strong authoritative presence to ensure the students don’t get out of hand.
The language barrier makes it difficult to deal with the parents. The Keeling Elementary student body is made of 71.6 percent Hispanic students, many of who have parents that do not speak English. They only have two Spanish-fluent members of their administrative faculty; the behavior monitor Oscar Bernal and the bilingual translator Sandra Aquino. With so many Spanish-speaking parents it proves difficult for the school to communicate student problems to parents.
To improve education and boost standardized test scores, Howard said they received a 21st Century grant to institute an after school program called “Achieve” that is designed specifically to help kids focus more and do better on standardized tests. Still, Howard doesn’t see the point of measuring a school’s success on standardized testing, “If you’ve passed the state’s school curriculum standards, than that should be your only measure,” she said, “some kids just don’t perform well on standardized testing.”
Helen Keeling Elementary School historically scores poorly on standardized testing, and because of budget cuts and other issues, the scores continue to drop.
Keeling Elementary is a small kindergarten to 5th grade school made of a student body of 482 located at 2837 N. Los Altos Ave. and part of the Amphitheater Unified School District. There are 37 teachers on staff, making for a student-teacher ratio of 13.1, which is actually smaller than the rest of Arizona’s 21.3 student-teacher ratio. Despite small class sizes, students still seem to be struggling on standardized testing, which is indicative of the vast amount of other problems the school faces.
Keeling Elementary saw drops in their percent passing rating in all categories on Arizona’s Instrument to Measure Standards, AIMS, in 2008. According to the Arizona Department of Education, the school fell from 68 percent to 64 percent passing in math, from 58 percent to 55 percent passing in reading subject and from 64 to 62 percent in writing. This is far below Arizona’s state passing averages in 2008; 74 percent were passing in math, 69 percent were passing reading and 70 percent were passing writing.
In a state that is according to the U.S. Census 49th in the country for passing standardized tests, these passing ratings at Keeling Elementary are alarming. Budget cuts are much to blame for Keeling and the rest of Arizona schools’ lack of success, and Arizona legislature passed budget cuts this year that will see nearly $133 million taken away from K-12 education. Arizona is already last in the nation for spending on individual students, and this statistic is not deterring legislature, who are hoping the cuts will lessen the $1.6 billion state deficit, away from making more cuts,
“There isn’t enough money in the budget to get the things I need to do my job,” said Keeling Elementary health assistant Helen Sunstedt, “My good thermometer broke and they replace it with some ancient thermometer that takes me 10 seconds to get a read on a child’s temperature, we’re losing the basic necessities.”
Keeling Elementary is located in the Keeling neighborhood association, one of Tucson’s most drug-ridden and violent areas. According to Tucson police, the area has mean drug arrests and violent crimes that are from 4 to 6 times the mean of Tucson’s. Because of this, the school can’t help but see the area’s criminal aspect, especially among the parents. School Administrative Assistant Michelle Howard said, “There is a huge lack of parental involvement among our students, some parents just don’t seem to help kids at all.” This lack of parental guidance could partly account for the school’s poor scoring on standardized testing.
The school has also seen problems with substance abuse among parents, and has had to take action against the parents on separate occasions. Kellie Rogers, the school’s Educational Assistant and clerk, said she sees the crime problem’s effect on the school “constantly”. She said, “The kids seem to know way too much about it (drugs and crime), we’ve had parents who’ve come in intoxicated, and of course we can’t allow them to take their children home on account of the children’s safety. I feel I have a sense of when people are under the influence because I’ve seen it so much while working with the parents here.”
The school also has problems with behavior, but due to the budget cuts, classes that were formerly put into place to separate children with behavioral problems from the attentive students have been cut, creating a disruptive class environment that is not conducive to education. Rogers, who was formerly a teacher in one of these classes, said, “They (the classes) were very draining to work in, we had three teachers for 15 kids all of whom has behavioral issues. Even worse, the parents seemed uninvolved and unwilling to work to create a better education for their child.”
The school also had to lay off its school resource officer. Sam Molina lost his job at Keeling Elementary due to the budget cuts, making the school lack a strong authoritative presence to ensure the students don’t get out of hand.
The language barrier makes it difficult to deal with the parents. The Keeling Elementary student body is made of 71.6 percent Hispanic students, many of who have parents that do not speak English. They only have two Spanish-fluent members of their administrative faculty; the behavior monitor Oscar Bernal and the bilingual translator Sandra Aquino. With so many Spanish-speaking parents it proves difficult for the school to communicate student problems to parents.
To improve education and boost standardized test scores, Howard said they received a 21st Century grant to institute an after school program called “Achieve” that is designed specifically to help kids focus more and do better on standardized tests. Still, Howard doesn’t see the point of measuring a school’s success on standardized testing, “If you’ve passed the state’s school curriculum standards, than that should be your only measure,” she said, “some kids just don’t perform well on standardized testing.”
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
The Long Road Home; pt. 8
He was re-invigorated. Eyes were all gazing upon him, and the lights of the cars forming an incandescent and impenetrable sight of vision. He saw the bodies being carried away. It was so familiar to him. And the woman, who was at once so beautiful and full of life, was now cold and blue, nothing emanating from her aside from a deep and foul stench that sickened the air. He knew this somehow. He had experienced this before, but from a different perspective.
He looked at the man carried next to his wife, their love carried into the afterlife. Or did it? Would they even be able to remember such a thing if there was an afterlife? The man’s body was decimated beyond recognition.
The air was stale and filled with death, yet still cool and refreshing. He walked backed to his vehicle in a state of deep self-reflection. The déjà vu was disturbing him. He couldn’t draw a connection between this occurrence of brutality and his previous experiences. The more he thought the more he realized he couldn’t comprehend time and its implications. He could have experienced this a million times and possibly have not remembered. But nevertheless, he felt whole and happy that he was able to be with the woman during her last breaths, to offer her comfort. Therefore maybe her journey would be easier and less mind numbing than his.
He turned the car on. There was a light shining on far down the road, and he felt drawn to it, he knew it was his destination. He had no idea what lay beyond the flash of white that was but a spec on his ray of vision, but he knew that wasn’t important, what was important was only that he get there.
He drove into the black, with the light at the end. No more stops, except for smokes, was what he vowed to himself. The amphetamine was running out, and he no longer felt the need for it. The excitement and anticipation was enough to keep him awake for eternity. 110 mph down the freeway. He felt free for the first time since he couldn’t remember, if he could remember at all.
He thought of the women at the hotel and the road. They seemed to be connected somehow, two different sides of his persona. The woman at the hotel was almost a manifestation of his inner guilt and trauma over something he didn’t remember (of course) experiencing. The woman on the road meant he still had heroism in him left, that he had kept his promise to the man at the hotel, he had kept hope. For whatever reason, he still felt hopeful in a world bereft of meaning and passion. He saw the point of soldiering on down that deep black road and into the beautiful shimmering white light. The ward grew warmer as he grew closer, like his blood was elevating in temperature as the miles progressed. So close, he could feel it.
He looked at the man carried next to his wife, their love carried into the afterlife. Or did it? Would they even be able to remember such a thing if there was an afterlife? The man’s body was decimated beyond recognition.
The air was stale and filled with death, yet still cool and refreshing. He walked backed to his vehicle in a state of deep self-reflection. The déjà vu was disturbing him. He couldn’t draw a connection between this occurrence of brutality and his previous experiences. The more he thought the more he realized he couldn’t comprehend time and its implications. He could have experienced this a million times and possibly have not remembered. But nevertheless, he felt whole and happy that he was able to be with the woman during her last breaths, to offer her comfort. Therefore maybe her journey would be easier and less mind numbing than his.
He turned the car on. There was a light shining on far down the road, and he felt drawn to it, he knew it was his destination. He had no idea what lay beyond the flash of white that was but a spec on his ray of vision, but he knew that wasn’t important, what was important was only that he get there.
He drove into the black, with the light at the end. No more stops, except for smokes, was what he vowed to himself. The amphetamine was running out, and he no longer felt the need for it. The excitement and anticipation was enough to keep him awake for eternity. 110 mph down the freeway. He felt free for the first time since he couldn’t remember, if he could remember at all.
He thought of the women at the hotel and the road. They seemed to be connected somehow, two different sides of his persona. The woman at the hotel was almost a manifestation of his inner guilt and trauma over something he didn’t remember (of course) experiencing. The woman on the road meant he still had heroism in him left, that he had kept his promise to the man at the hotel, he had kept hope. For whatever reason, he still felt hopeful in a world bereft of meaning and passion. He saw the point of soldiering on down that deep black road and into the beautiful shimmering white light. The ward grew warmer as he grew closer, like his blood was elevating in temperature as the miles progressed. So close, he could feel it.
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